Awakened5 In reply to TheLordTaxus [2018-09-07 05:19:24 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.
Needed that.

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TheLordTaxus In reply to Awakened5 [2018-09-08 11:26:45 +0000 UTC]

Hope you are doing better.

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Awakened5 In reply to JJJMadness [2018-09-07 05:19:40 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much.
It was a rough day.

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Awakened5 In reply to PapierowySzczur [2018-09-07 05:19:57 +0000 UTC]

Thank you too.
It was much appreciated.

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PapierowySzczur In reply to Awakened5 [2018-09-07 10:04:19 +0000 UTC]

My pleasure. I hope you had a good day

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Awakened5 In reply to bmesias063 [2016-10-17 12:04:49 +0000 UTC]

Hello there bmesias063!
That has been a while since I´ve heard from you (or seen any activity on your artwork page for that matter... some even said it was going to stay that way, to their distress...)
Good to see you again.
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Me?
Well, currently trying to recover mentally, psychologically and physically from hitting a wall. (Nasty story...the strain of stress hit me hard due to my everlasting drops in depression and danger of beginning developing schizophrenia as time passes on... No clue if it actually happened or happen or not, but I remain positive.)
Been mostly doing some re-writing on older chapters, filling up holes with the shovel in the story and fixed some of its flaws (not gotten all of them yet though...my hiatus is still ongoing for the remaining half of the month, at least...)

I also have been doing some drawing on artworks just to make sure that my artistic skills doesn´t get rusty in this hiatus while I´m recovering... you might have seen them in my gallery as I put them in once in a while.

And I´ve been stuck in the same isolation as always...life moves on like the gears in a clock.
Isolated out of sight for all, tucked into a little box.
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How is your artistic work going and life in general for that matter?
Busy?

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bmesias063 In reply to Awakened5 [2016-10-24 22:15:18 +0000 UTC]

I do think it is dead end for my art career, but guess what I'm back. Somehow I got my interest back again after three years of inactivity.

I'm very sorry that you got that dramatic experience. It's not really easy to undergo such strains in life (as I myself got work problems very much, not similar from yours, but equally stressful and depressing). All we need do is to manage to be happy and let it go from what we can in our abilities. Theirs no need to match up expectations if you cannot do it. Let the problem had it itself.

It's good to hear you are back to your shoes re-doing oldworks. If by chance you bump to that we had made previously, perhaps we can share ideas again and work with it. I'll visit your gallery as soonas I got my space-time. Having this teaching work here in our country is getting a toll of us these days. You can also see what I newly posted in my gallery as well.

Just don't remain in an isolation forever, my friend. Do what bears are making...they ain't living their lives in hibernation...they still had time to get out of there hides and bath in the sun.

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Awakened5 In reply to bmesias063 [2016-10-25 06:27:03 +0000 UTC]

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Awakened5 In reply to Awakened5 [2016-11-06 13:20:05 +0000 UTC]

There´s a distinct difference between "anonymous socialization" and "personal socialization". When faceless, I am at enough ease to strike decent conversations indirectly. But when face to face with anyone, I tense up and end up resorting into making a written character doing the talking for me, through me, and watch mentally from the sidelines... coming off as "false" as a result and unappealing to the one in the conversation. I can´t ease up as myself, only express myself as a character with myself as the vessel. if that makes any sense.
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AAH! The author of the "Phantom Trilogy"!
(have been following his work for as long as it has gotten... and as usual, it tends to get under my skin in a good way as I witness the life of the old times in great detail...)
Was the argument a personal issue involved or something author related? (If it´s the former, a personal matter, then I know enough to stay out of it...)
I guess that happens from time to time...things like friendships are bridges, and once they burn down, it´s not the easiest to rebuild them again without meeting halfway over the canyon that separate two people. Slow and steady wins the race...and an honest apology makes wonders when signaling the other side to at least try an start building for new grounds.
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Well, thank you very much there, but my story hasn´t reached the global part yet as it´s still on its own little continent, far away from the world... I do however, have made hybrid warriors from different cultures as put into the Grande Armeé army of hybrids including those based on the feudal era of japan, ancient egyptian, ancient rome and even the aztec kingdom and its empire among other kingdom representatives... so the cultural part in more detailed aspects have no need to be covered yet.
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And don´t forget the issue with disrespectful students which acts violently against the teachers who are too afraid to lay a hand on them in fear of a lawsuit from the kids´ parents, earning them a discharge from their jobs as punishment and result. And then there´s also parents who tries to get their noses in "how" the teachers should teach their kids, making it even more difficult for them... and then there´s the massive pressure of "Good grades: Good payday" which involves the idiotic notion that "if the kids are getting bad grades, then it´s the teacher´s fault and if the teacher is doing a bad job, the wage will be lowered accordingly", which means that unless the grades are good, the teachers will receive a cut in their salary, forcing them into approving flawed and faulty tests in fear of losing funds just to survive themselves. Which means that incompetent students can get out with good grades on paper, but in reality, lack what they need to know just because the teachers are getting blamed for the lack of efforts from lazy students. And that´s not even getting into the continuous annoyance of students using their cellphones while in class. 
Being a teacher must be a living hell with all this pressure going on and dropping on their shoulders.

If any of this happened to me, I would have gone through it like this...
Confiscate every single phone in the classroom and deliver them at the end of the school´s day. If the students complain, I give them a piece of my mind and tell them to start stuyding instead.
If assaulted by a hostile student (a punch to my face), I´ll grab them in self-defense and tell them that unless they calm down, I´ll sue them, (not their parents, THEM) for personal injury on my person. Hopefully that shuts them up as I make a phone call to their parents afterwards.
If a parent tries to get involved in my educational plan, I´ll (politely) tell them to "beat it" and stay out of it. (parents should stay at home while teachers stay in school, everyone in their natural habitat is the best solution of things)
And if the students are too lazy to read up and study, I´ll give them the grades they exactly deserves, and send a copy straight to their parents to ensure that the students doesn´t just send the grade into the trashcan to hide the evidence.
Stern and righteous, that´s my approach.

The school system needs to function as its own existence through confirmed working methods and approaches, not be too soft on the students, and keep the parents out of anything that doesn´t concern them. The teachers needs to regain control, since they´re the ones doing most of the work, and guide the ship that´s the educational system back on track once more.
Just my thoughts on the matter.
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I honestly don´t think there is one and if there is, how do I know that it won´t give me insomnia or narcolepsy or something else that messes up with my sleep? Natural is best, it´s always the best approach, and I´ll rather take my chances there than with drugs.
Well, that would mean that I would have to find another partner in life that got a driver´s license and willing to do that... since I´m a stranded duck on the road otherwise.
Even if it´s a good thing that I do got the driver´s license, in case something happens, right?
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bmesias063 In reply to Awakened5 [2016-11-01 04:20:43 +0000 UTC]

How about try to mingle with others...and don't get discourage if someone is trying to put you down. I'm glad you know the cause of your problem...your childhood experience. Now is the time to act against it....I mean...not to go with the flow of just being a wrecked, lonely individual. It is in your hands now how to get out of the situation, that is to find a spot to be belong with a group of helpful friends to put you into good tracks.

As of artworks, I did like to have your aid. I actually didn't abandon what I had in my plans in the plans, though I am careful now, as to not to hurt the first person I collaborate with. As of now I am practicing making realistic outfits into my artwork, and lately got interest in medieval polish commonwealth history (after watching the movie "With Fre and Sword", a 2000's movie I suppose). As of now I posted Miata in a surcoat outfit, coming soon is natalie in a polish hussar gear.

Good to see you made some fanfics which Miata is involved. I'll try to buy time to read your fanfics and others, but as of the moment, with all teacher-works and personal matters in line, I might be ble to do these things as of now. As of teacher work, it seems that your country and mine had similar teaching-related problems. Could be possible that we had the same country we lived with...just wondering.

I don't believe you would be ever as wretched as you thought youd be. I do believe you can overcome whatever problems you had right now. Just hang on and went through it, and you can see light out of it.
Holy crap that was very dangerous!!!! Never ever drive asleep!!!;

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Awakened5 In reply to bmesias063 [2016-11-02 13:47:17 +0000 UTC]

Well, without knowing how to socialize, that can be a challenge as well.
since I don´t even know how to begin or what i have in common with others as example.
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Hurt? how did you hurt that one? or is it about that silent outrage from miss "SilentChloey" regarding theories and possibilities back then?
Regardless, if one got a idea one can always attribute it as one of many possibilities within the multiverse, making it an au of individualism and removing quite some rage from the other creators.
It was fun to draw within that line of your plans as well as it provided some variations to my own work as well and gave me a couple of challenges to tackle myself as a artist. (wings among them) and I would gladely make a try to tackle some of the ideas there as well with my current skills if asked for it.
I noticed and the outfits really looks great, (a part I myself is trying on in a more global scale with my own characters...and not so sure how good I am regarding that myself.)
Will look forward to see it.
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I understand completely, since being a teacher must be quite ungrateful in today´s society (judging from the journal post I saw on your page you got enough work heaved on your shoulders already...)
Well, I think the issues with the teacher profession is a global thing, with the current generation lacking the motivation of taking up the mantle of their predecessors, making the lack of personal in the areas more apparent. the pitfalls of society have yet to be filled and new ones are made by governments that tries different things to resolve them, without actually getting to the root of the problem.
(like over here, they introduced the "A-E" grading system...which ended up as a mess as expected since the teachers had no idea how to judge after those criteria, making things worse for the students.)
Still no solution in sight for the dropping average scores...
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Well, thanks for the support, very much appreciated.
Smile.
And me falling asleep is the same principle as why infants falls asleep in the car... it´s the engine vibrations. and I can´t turn off the engine on the road now, can I?

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bmesias063 In reply to Awakened5 [2016-11-05 11:16:05 +0000 UTC]

Hmmm...that's strange from you...hmmm. Well, you do socialize with me, so that means you got some skill. I believe you can go round with it. Just try more in socialization and perhaps not get heated immediately in an argument...and you will have one good socialization with a perso....until a simple chat will become a solid friendship thing.

No I didn't mean silent chloey. I refer to darklordrevan5. He is the first person who I mingle with in terms of claymore fanfict artworks. Now I have to built things back to start with him after I tear such camaraderie three years past. I did manage to talk to him...the once level of friendship we had before is far from reach. And I need to go back to that level.

Good you like drawing stuffs that are related to mine. Hope you do well with a global-themed story....but I tell you it is very hard esp. you have to make every culture in your story  believable diverse to one another, something only a person who wide cultural exposure can easily do.

I do believe the fault lies first to how the government or an institution carries the welfare of its employees. Here in ours, we had enough of these theories and educational principles..... I believe that if the government focus on relieving work stress by employing humane work loads will solve the problem in education. I tell you, teachers here will no longer perform as optimal as what every government wants to be if they simply command us to do new things and putting new workloads on us, while we are teaching 70 students in a crowded classroom a day, holding all school-subjects from English to PE. And worse, receiving low salary.

Well, if there is a medication for that you must try it, or probably not drive the wheel - let someone drive for you.

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Awakened5 In reply to bmesias063 [2016-11-06 13:21:08 +0000 UTC]

Understands, everyone needs an hobby.
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Well, my problem might stem from the isolation and utter lack on how to approach others at all, a result of a childhood raised in isolation from others and was never dealt with before the damage was done. Leaving lonely children alone is not a solution, I´m proof of that... and now I just don´t know what to do or how to do it... living in a bubble.
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Well, I do remember the old artworks I did in collaboration with you and can find them easily. If the interest is there, I would really much try and share ideas once more as that was indeed entertaining and educative as I did learn how to make wings from such artworks, if my memory serves me right. I will see through the gallery of yours properly...
(as I too have made an adult version of Miata, but from the SEA-verse which I´m writing on... one of my better works actually (the artwork of her that is...).) And teaching jobs seems to be difficult no matter where it is, considering that there´s a utter lack of teachers in my country...and those who are that, are facing problems of their own in terms of parents getting involved in how to educate the children, the government trying new things in failed attempts of getting the average grades up and lack of good pay to motivate the aspirants to seeking the occupation.
It´s a mess.
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As mentioned, utter lack of knowledge prevents me from going out and I have been confirmed incapable of surviving in society by the authorities...it´s a bit difficult to overcome that stamp, you should know... but thank for the advice...I´ll try.
(That I fall asleep driving for longer than 30 minutes is another problem though...)

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Awakened5 In reply to Lynnae-Madison [2014-09-04 19:23:47 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much

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Lynnae-Madison In reply to Awakened5 [2014-09-06 00:30:28 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome! ^^

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Awakened5 In reply to kylefitch [2014-09-04 19:24:06 +0000 UTC]

Thank you... it has been a while

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Awakened5 In reply to TheLordTaxus [2014-09-04 19:24:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much

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Awakened5 In reply to DoubleCatrin [2014-09-02 16:32:31 +0000 UTC]

thanks appreciate the thought.

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Awakened5 In reply to TheLordTaxus [2014-07-10 13:35:20 +0000 UTC]

I have and that was one of the first things I tried, but somehow I couldn´t get it to work... what is the specific rules to upload a chapter here on deviantart?

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TheLordTaxus In reply to Awakened5 [2014-07-10 13:43:22 +0000 UTC]

It has to be a text file under 75 kb. I cut and paste mine from Word onto my note pad tool and save them as a plain text file then upload them. Or you can cut and past them to stash. You might have tweek them a bit after, though.

Your story is so cool. I wish I could write like that. Your work reminds me of my friend Greyman101's story.

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Awakened5 In reply to TheSilentChloey [2013-12-06 06:52:50 +0000 UTC]

I have read it now... and I must agree with your statement.

it was really good

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TheSilentChloey In reply to Awakened5 [2013-12-06 07:08:18 +0000 UTC]

Well I just wanted people to feel sorry for Cid/Sid and I apparently succeeded...even Mortalshinobi felt sorry for him and I know for a fact that Mortalshinobi hates Cid...

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Awakened5 In reply to TheSilentChloey [2013-12-06 07:37:35 +0000 UTC]

You succeeded...

And that comes from someone who didn´t cared for Cid at all on this end.

Poor guy... he had no clue of what was coming.

thanks for the link by the way.

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