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[2010-09-25 04:07:17 +0000 UTC]
"Paul Downhour"
(United States)
# Statistics
Favourites: 189; Deviations: 9; Watchers: 2
Watching: 23; Pageviews: 5659; Comments Made: 197; Friends: 23
# Comments
Comments: 37
Apparently as often as I can is very hard to do. Every time I try I break down, reopening the wound your loss has created. I still love you I always will. I remember how honored I was when you told people I was your daughter. I always thought of you as a dad so it was so great to know you thought the same.
A small part of me is glad you're gone so you don't have to see your daughter's health fail her. So you don't have to watch as I struggle day to day to ignore the pain and try ti remember even the most basic facts. I'm glad you don't have to see this. But the selfish part of me wishes you could be here for me while I'm going through all this.
I sorta started drawing again. I can't do it often but I try when I can. Hopefully the pain will pass or they figure out whats wrong and fiix it. I really wish you where here.
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Hey paul it's me. I miss you so much. I know you won't reply that yoi can't and It's killing me. Not a moment goes by that I don't think of you. Holidays aren't the same and I am having a harder time keeping my mask up.
I still have your last text. I don't know how many times I have almost texted your old number in hopes you'd reply. But they probably gave your number to someone else. So I'm going to put a message here as often as I can so I can feel like I'm talking to you again. I miss you dad
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Silence seems to be the only conversation worth a damn right now. I will miss you forever and a day Paul. I can't believe you are gone.
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I'm really sorry ...Paul was my best friend. His memorial will be on SaturdayΒ
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not much..can we chat on here?
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sorta this is one way lol also we can send notes if we don't want people reading what we say lol
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okay cool,hey have you checked out my favs?
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i got some sabretooth pics on there lol
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i did go see you dont have much saved yet lol
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i know lol i added some more stuff today
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lol XD alright i'll check it out
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hi tiff how are you?how's lola?i miss you guys.
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we are alright, i got the flu and lola is still out in german town
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hey tiff i hope you're feeling better.i still wanna do a zombie comic strip,i came up with an idea for my first one.
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Hey tiff,how are ya?
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PAUL!!! *glomps* im good you?
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Hey tiff is everything ok?Lynne was asking why you didnt have your phone turned on,she kept trying to call you for your birthday.I told her you just didnt feel like talking but she said you've never done that on your birthday.Mom is really upset too.
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yeah im fine i was just cramping realy bad so i didn't feel much like talking. and when i wasnt cramping i was surrounded by lola and everyone else taking away my chances to get on the phone lol so yeah everything is fine i'll probably get on the phone today when i go home around 8 ish
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i found you >3 muwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....ha
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