rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2014-08-02 05:02:17 +0000 UTC]

TBH TERRIBLE BUT I'M GETTIN' BETTER!!! 

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2014-08-02 07:06:01 +0000 UTC]

Oh darling I'm sorry to hear that. It's good that you're at least getting better! What's wrong, though? I'm assuming it involves mental illness, right?

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2014-08-22 23:52:51 +0000 UTC]

E V ERYTHING IS MENTAL ILLNESS W/ME THESE DAYS TBH

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2014-08-25 01:20:10 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear that, hun *huugggglee*
The same thing happened to me for a few years, and only recently have I been diagnosed with general anxiety and have to take medication for it and stuff.

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2014-08-25 23:34:00 +0000 UTC]

HUGS TIGHT 

yeah for some reason it feels like for everybody, the underlying causes of their problems are some form of MD or another as of late 
maybe it's just our generation or something but everyone I know has a mental disorder or some problem like that 

and yeah for some reason not only do I have severe anxiety but I have like... this underlying panic disorder or whatever that I treat with Klonopin, which is like Super Addictive Oh No Can't Take For More Than 9 Months meanwhile ive been on it since like Last Year

benzodiazepines, man. benzos are intense apparently. 

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2014-08-26 00:05:27 +0000 UTC]

Oh god yeah, I know exactly what you mean. A lot of people in this generation suffer from some type of mental illness. Incidentally, those who have suffered from a mental illness like me, are the ones that I can get along with better. It's really hard to speak to certain people who've never had it. I also feel like medication doesn't always fix the problem. And I find it dumb when doctors prescribe you with something that's ADDICTING. I feel like it's their way of getting money. Honestly, one of my biggest fears is being so dependant on medication that I can't function. Though, it's too late since I'm already dependant on it so fml.

Do you think you have an idea of what type of MD you may have? I know I've been told by my therapist that I have Cluster B traits of Borderline and Histrionic, but luckily they're subsiding as time goes. Feeling mentally unstable and like you're about to lose your grip is the worse fucking feeling ever.

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2014-08-26 19:27:48 +0000 UTC]

I have double depression - pervasive depressive disorder and major depressive disorder combined. It's a result of codependency from living with abusive parents & especially my narcissistic mother. AFAIK I have no personality disorders sans mild codependent depression. I have GAD and that weird panic disorder and mild to moderate PTSD. Isn't it absolutely great being comorbid? Like shit. I could've done with just depression but I have like eight other disorders too because so much of it just feeds off each other. 

THe thing with me and Klonopin is that I show no signs of addiction to it. It's just a treatment for me. It hasn't made me worse or better. Apparently it's supposed to be a temporary fix, so I might move down to something like Buspar, but Klonopin has been working fine for a year straight. So I'm pretty okay with my meds, even though it's a friggen Benzo. 

I think the thing that makes me the most mad is if it's people who are supposed to be your friends purposefully using your mental illness as a way to hurt you, because then that just doubles the pain of losing someone you trust. Or if it's your family and they suddenly decide "you're on your own because we give up and you're hurting the family" even if you haven't done anything except like, exist. 

That's kind of the thing that hurts the worst. It's when you get shit for being mentally ill. Even if it's from other people with a mental illness, especially if it's from them, because they should understand, but they don't. 

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2014-08-27 06:09:32 +0000 UTC]

Oh god. That sounds like a lot to handle. If a depressive person can only run on a half-tank of gasoline in a day, I imagine you'd have way less than that. And most of it probably goes into trying to keep yourself stable, right? Although I'm very reassured that you are at least getting some type of treatment for it rather than letting it build up more and get worse. I REALLY hope that you get through this, and if I were you I probably wouldn't be able to handle it for as long as you probably have.

And yeah, I hate it when people who you think are your friends treat you that way. Especially when they see you as if you're some type of crippled person and keep calling you out for it. It's really important to know how to detect those types of assholes before the damage is done. It also gets pretty bad when you repeatedly tell your teachers at school about your mental illness and what they should do with it, and yet they don't listen. Instead they call you out for it thinking that you're making excuses and being "lazy". I feel you girl TT_TT

I also can't understand why people who are mentally ill can't understand others that suffer from it. I still can not wrap my head around people like that since they're SUPPOSED to understand, but they don't. I guess they can't understand you if your cause of mental illness or the way you deal with it is different from other people's?

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rosenknospeo In reply to Princess-o-Pikachu [2014-06-16 02:11:52 +0000 UTC]

MOMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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Princess-o-Pikachu In reply to rosenknospeo [2014-06-16 12:01:10 +0000 UTC]

MEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

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rosenknospeo In reply to Reiirin [2014-02-09 20:27:33 +0000 UTC]

yeeeEEEEEEE

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2013-10-06 22:44:09 +0000 UTC]

EEYYY!!! WASSUP!!!!!!!

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-10-06 23:35:00 +0000 UTC]

NOTHING MUCH, JUST LURKING AROUND STALKING PEOPLE! WHAT ABOUT YOOOUUUUU?????

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2013-10-07 04:36:19 +0000 UTC]

CRYIN BECAUSE COLLEGE IS HARD

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-10-07 20:57:44 +0000 UTC]

AH, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, I'VE BEEN CRYING BECAUSE HIGH SCHOOL GOT REAAALLL SERIOUS AND THE STRESS IS GIVING ME BACK PAINS.

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2013-10-08 20:33:54 +0000 UTC]

COLLEGE IS WORSE IT KILLS YOU IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO PRESERVE YOUR MENTAL SANITY LIKE DANG HECK

I HOPE YOUR BACK PAINS FEEL BETTER ;_;

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VeenaVal In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-10-09 02:56:02 +0000 UTC]

OMG THANKS

AND I KNOW, I'M SERIOUSLY SCARED FOR COLLEGE. ON THE OTHER HAND I HAVE FRIENDS IN COLLEGE HAVING THE TIME OF THEIR LIFE SINCE THEY DON'T GET HOMEWORK //CRAI TT_TT

OMG, WE SHOULD START TALKING AGAIN, HAHAHAHAH

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rosenknospeo In reply to VeenaVal [2013-10-10 21:49:54 +0000 UTC]

DEPENDS WHERE YOU GO... I HAVE HOMEWORK SO IT'S NOT ACTUALLY TRUE A LOT OF IT IS BASED OFF OF WHETHER OR NOT YOU *DO* THE WORK THO

USUALLY THEY'LL GIVE YOU A SYLLABUS WITH ALL THE WORK ON IT AND THE DATE THAT THE WORK IS DUE ON IT TOO 

SO YOU HAVE TO WORK OFF OF THE SYLLABUS AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE A SYLLABUS YER SCREWD

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rosenknospeo In reply to kidtastic [2013-06-02 02:43:25 +0000 UTC]

same Thing

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kidtastic In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-06-02 16:22:58 +0000 UTC]

i knew pood understand

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rosenknospeo In reply to kidtastic [2013-03-20 20:21:25 +0000 UTC]

FUCK YOU

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kidtastic In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-03-20 20:36:02 +0000 UTC]

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rosenknospeo In reply to canaandoveamber [2013-02-27 03:46:30 +0000 UTC]

what do u want

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canaandoveamber In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-02-27 03:54:03 +0000 UTC]

konnichiwa

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rosenknospeo In reply to canaandoveamber [2013-02-27 03:58:37 +0000 UTC]

おはようございます　エリカーちゃん

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canaandoveamber In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-02-27 04:11:52 +0000 UTC]

何故おはよう

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rosenknospeo In reply to canaandoveamber [2013-02-27 04:28:19 +0000 UTC]

だああああああああああああああああああかああああああああああああああああああああらあああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああああ

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canaandoveamber In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-02-27 05:38:33 +0000 UTC]

何でおはようって言っただけだろｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗ

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rosenknospeo In reply to canaandoveamber [2013-02-27 12:54:14 +0000 UTC]

you're a LITTLE BITACH.... BOTCH

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canaandoveamber In reply to rosenknospeo [2013-02-27 22:25:04 +0000 UTC]

WAT did u just SAY...........................................

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rosenknospeo In reply to canaandoveamber [2013-02-27 23:22:42 +0000 UTC]

I JSUT CALLED YOU A BTICH!!!! TWO YOU'RE FAAAAAAAAAAAAACE!!!!!!!!!!!! OWNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PWNED XD

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