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a little vent art of Victim :'D i'm having a bit of a rough time but i'm on the mend, emotionally! I promise i haven't forgotten about commissions, but art in general kind of got shoved out of the way while I was dealing with some stuff.

My dad had a bit of a setback with his health but he's doing better now! He's also finished with chemo, pretty much, and is just on a maintenance dose for now. Hopefully he'll start to feel more like himself soon!

About 2 weeks ago, I had to have my 15 year old cat put to sleep. I'd had Kisa since the second she was born--I was spending the night at a friend's house when my friend's cat decided that I would be a good place to give birth :'D I woke up to her cat literally having a kitten on me, it was an interesting experience! Kisa was my baby and I still miss her very much every day. It kind of hits me hard whenever I first get home, especially, because she always met me at the door. Every morning when I got up to feed the animals, I put her a fresh little bowl of water in her favorite window in the bathroom, and I haven't been able to even look at the window since she's been gone. The cup is still there but I don't have the heart to do anything with it. She was a stress groomer, and would pull her fur out if she got stressed, so there's little clumps of her fur hiding all over the house, and every time i find some it hurts all over again. She had very bad liver failure, which had to have been going on for at least a little while, but she only started acting like she felt bad a few days before I had her put to sleep. I could have tried to manage it with fluids and a feeding tube, but she was not an easy cat to do anything to, and she stressed so easily that I didn't want to put her through anything like that if I didn't have to. I decided the most humane thing was to have her put to sleep, but it was hard, so so so hard. I took her home for one last day together, and got to sleep cuddled up with her on my chest, and take her for one last walk on her harness outside. They'd given her some fluids and pain medicine at the vet so she felt better and seemed to really enjoy it. I'm glad I have that last good memory of her. I put her collar on the box that holds her ashes, along with her little pawprint. Ah geez, I made myself cry again, so I'm gonna stop now. I mostly just wanted to explain why I've been so quiet lately. I've been doing better! But Kisa was my heart cat, and I don't know if i'm ever going to not be heartbroken when I think about her. I'm trying to keep busy with work and I'll do my best to get commissions finished soon. Sorry to those of you who are waiting!

If you read all of that, thank you for taking the time to listen to me blubber :'D i appreciate you! I hope everyone is staying safe and doing well.

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a little vent art of Victim :'D i'm having a bit of a rough time but i'm on the mend, emotionally! I promise i haven't forgotten about commissions, but art in general kind of got shoved out of the way while I was dealing with some stuff.

My dad had a bit of a setback with his health but he's doing better now! He's also finished with chemo, pretty much, and is just on a maintenance dose for now. Hopefully he'll start to feel more like himself soon!

About 2 weeks ago, I had to have my 15 year old cat put to sleep. I'd had Kisa since the second she was born--I was spending the night at a friend's house when my friend's cat decided that I would be a good place to give birth :'D I woke up to her cat literally having a kitten on me, it was an interesting experience! Kisa was my baby and I still miss her very much every day. It kind of hits me hard whenever I first get home, especially, because she always met me at the door. Every morning when I got up to feed the animals, I put her a fresh little bowl of water in her favorite window in the bathroom, and I haven't been able to even look at the window since she's been gone. The cup is still there but I don't have the heart to do anything with it. She was a stress groomer, and would pull her fur out if she got stressed, so there's little clumps of her fur hiding all over the house, and every time i find some it hurts all over again. She had very bad liver failure, which had to have been going on for at least a little while, but she only started acting like she felt bad a few days before I had her put to sleep. I could have tried to manage it with fluids and a feeding tube, but she was not an easy cat to do anything to, and she stressed so easily that I didn't want to put her through anything like that if I didn't have to. I decided the most humane thing was to have her put to sleep, but it was hard, so so so hard. I took her home for one last day together, and got to sleep cuddled up with her on my chest, and take her for one last walk on her harness outside. They'd given her some fluids and pain medicine at the vet so she felt better and seemed to really enjoy it. I'm glad I have that last good memory of her. I put her collar on the box that holds her ashes, along with her little pawprint. Ah geez, I made myself cry again, so I'm gonna stop now. I mostly just wanted to explain why I've been so quiet lately. I've been doing better! But Kisa was my heart cat, and I don't know if i'm ever going to not be heartbroken when I think about her. I'm trying to keep busy with work and I'll do my best to get commissions finished soon. Sorry to those of you who are waiting!

If you read all of that, thank you for taking the time to listen to me blubber :'D i appreciate you! I hope everyone is staying safe and doing well.