VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-10-07 00:46:31 +0000 UTC]

I sent you an email, didn't you get it? I was wondering why I wasn't getting a reply... I'll resend it

*cuddles and kisses* I missed you too!

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-10-07 01:15:22 +0000 UTC]

Haven't gotten it did you get my E-mail with the new stories on it?

-Kisses and cuddles- I missed you MORE!

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-10-07 15:50:48 +0000 UTC]

I did get your email with the adorable proposal story etc! I really liked it. I sent a revised version of the email again yesterday.
, since the old one wasn't so relevant anymore.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAQ [2012-03-31 11:05:34 +0000 UTC]

Hahaha I saw it, we had a text war as I recall.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-22 22:39:34 +0000 UTC]

Thank yoou~~ No worries, I am hard to offend and I will look forward to it. Did you get the pictures as well?

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-23 04:03:41 +0000 UTC]

I did get them I'm using them as a template for the exact details since it is not my story. -Smiles-

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Bi-ton [2012-03-18 14:03:57 +0000 UTC]

... True. I will~~~ I just need to draw it then.

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Bi-ton In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-18 17:43:02 +0000 UTC]

Lol~!

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-16 20:37:07 +0000 UTC]

MAIL IT TO MEEEEEEE <3 PLEEEEASE~

I didn't want to email you before I got your character sheet properly sorted, I underestimated the time it would take. It's half done Sorry it's taking so long.

If you want me to play around with the daughter's design too, I'm pretty free this weekend (I think anyway).

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-17 01:50:19 +0000 UTC]

-Laughs at how excited you got- Let me finish tweaking it and I'll send it over.

No worries, when you said you have it the next day done . . . I kind of chuckled. Because I know how do things that are handed to you and I know there was no way you'd allow it to finish within that amount of time with the way you look things over. So no worries at all I know it will get done. Because I can't do nothing till it's over due to a writing block I decided to draw.

Sure you can do that, you can play with her design when I send the picture. I'm not going to do anything to her till I know it's going to stick. I'm not even sure with the hair style but for now what I have drawn of her hair I like. Don't forget to send those goodies over you promised as well to me. -.- My mind is lousy did you say you hadn't watched D.gray man before?

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-19 18:05:24 +0000 UTC]

I GOT YOUR PICTURE! It's lovely, his partner does look really good. Well done! Are you gonna colour that one too? Do you want me to run it through Photoshop or anything?

Yeah, I really was over ambitious... Should be done soon enough, sorry you have to wait again.

I will send them, I've scanned them in, but am kinda losing confidence in them because it doesn't feel like much progress considering the amount of time I took for just those first draft pages. And I'm a bit stuck. Nah , I read part of D.Gray man. Why do you ask?

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-20 00:10:12 +0000 UTC]

You have no idea how happy I am just to hear from you! -Hugs- The nightmares are back again . . . they seem to be getting worse. -Sighs- Hopefully a trip to visit Alicia and Grandma will help me settle down. I think it's just the lack of communication between me and my friends. Judging by the symbolism of the nightmares. Well this time I'm walking as somebody I only glance at my reflection in a building but I get this feeling I'm Allen . . . Because I'm working on him right now in a story and I'm met by Kanda and we are speaking and laughing and he's being his asshole self but smiles sadly before he leaves me alone. I feel emotional and yet I smile happily at my friends when I feel actually very sad to a point of tears. Which I think he's not there as a lover but as my other self . . . my Anti-social, cold, too myself personality and Allen's my good person, happy, smiling nature and His walking away is telling me I'm giving into my emotional side again and it's warning me that if I don't call him back I'll be a mess of emotions again that I once was.

"The second part of my dream I'm walking with a girl and a guy . . . don't recognize them. We are in a school field trip which I've been on before I remember it for another nightmare which. We decided to skip the trip and ditch and slide down an embankment to hide but we are seen or at least they it seems and so they leave me and that embankment turns into a ledge off a the side of a cliff which I try to get back up and only end up falling father down into a pit who's walls weren't so high last time I fell. I mean those walls were unclimbable by myself. They were nasty steep mo foe's."

I think I means I feel like I'm sticking my neck out for some people called friends but there only their for my help and are quick to leave my side and I'm left on a edge of a cliff alone to wallow in hurt. When I try to get out of the hurt alone I'm only left falling father down into what I'm guessing depression.


"Than I stumble around the pit and fall into deep traveling water that leads to a room that's ending path is a bottomless water whole."

I still don't know what the water means to me other than maybe my emotions out of control. As if I'm being swept away by them maybe. I've never gone that far with this dream first time for me.


"But I'm looking around and I grab hold of vines hanging from a low wall above and I pull myself up with some kind of vines . . ."

Not sure if they symbolize my strength or bonds of those who I still feel care.

"I end up at a door that only opens up into a crawl space big enough to get into and to watch the dark water's below."

Don't know what the door is to me yet.

"Than I hear a voice through the pipes in there and I call out to it for help and it's a women and she's making fun of me for getting into such a mess but she promises to stick with me and to tell others where I am"

I wake up before I'm saved. I never cry though I feel my strength in believing is small like a fluttering bird but it's there. I have no Idea who the women is to me but she's defiantly that one friend who pulls me out of my depression. But yet I talked your ears off over that . . . sorry.


Anyhow back to that which you commented me about. I know right he's very hot everything I imagined he'd be like! No color for them. Don't have a way to do anything with them. Sure if you want to run it though Photo shop hun. -Smiles- I wont ask I'll only hint, you know this.

No worries . . . I'm stuck in a writers block anyhow . . only lucky to write a short profile bio for Dom in an Rp with a new friend. Other than that I'd dead stuck in my new writing.

No loose confidence alright! I know it feels like nothing is getting done but it is just wait and see. I can't wait to see it all and so I will help anyway I can as a cheerleader it get your grove and a planner to help plan your next step!

I'm stuck and wanted you to look over it see how I'm doing I asked another friend too so I wouldn't have to bother you but yeah . . no reply at all from them.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-20 19:00:45 +0000 UTC]

That's awful! If you wake up before being saved you spend the rest of your time feeling like you're still hanging on for dear life. And you feel deserted all day.

I've been having nightmares again too, but it was that I'd lost everything to fire and when I thought I had finally found somewhere to be safe and someone who wasn't just going to disappear, a fire started and I couldn't save her even though she was right in front of me and I ended up losing her too. Not sure what that could mean, but I woke up crying again. It's really quite strange we have nightmares at the same time, I wonder why.

I hope a trip to Alicia can sort it out for you, I'm heading home again on Sunday for the holidays so maybe that will sort me out too. Also I, for one, won't leave you stranded when you have troubles and even if I take a little time to reply sometimes, I'm still here for you.

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-26 13:56:53 +0000 UTC]

Actually I'm glad I didn't see if I was saved . . . I feel as if it be telling me my future. -Chuckles- I know it's silly sounding but yeah.

Sorry, I am barely writing back to this now. I was hoping we could text everything and it be easier to talk but, -Smiles- seems like that's even difficult for us. Oh well, Anyhow depending on the context of your dream. Fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger. Here a couple of examples it might mean.

The fire to the house suggest that you need to undo go change, that the old needs to be changed to something new. Alternatively, it highlights passion and the love of those around you.

The fact somebody was burned means new life, normally means pregnancy.

It's also might be a warning that person is dangerous or risky. You are literally "playing with fire".

To dream that you can't save somebody means your flustered in rl with being unable to help or save somebody close to you.

But that's as close to research I did for that. Well as for now I can't go and I'm fin with that I'm backed up on work, I'm flustered I had my anxiety run through the roof yesterday and the day before. It was bad I had the beginning stages of a panic attack Saturday. My right chest between my collar bone and breast swells up and feels like somebody is taking a knife to and repeatedly stabbing me but I never numb, I feel ever slice and jab of the blade. It's very painful and only gets that way when I hit the roof with my Anxiety. I had to drink all the beer in the house one after another to calm myself down so I could have a simply convo with my mothers brother and family who are here.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-26 23:50:30 +0000 UTC]

I looked it up too. I think the meaning is "burnt out" . I think the part of me that protect me is getting tired of always being on defence. I've very grateful you took the time to check it out for me.

Yesterday I slept almost 24 hours! Well, I woke up once for a couple of minutes, but I slept about 22 hours at least.

I know the feeling, but please please please be careful with the drinking. Start taking Kalms if you have to, they really help, but you need to take quite a lot (I take two a day after meals and the night-time ones before bed when I starting getting anxiety problems regularly). I don't know about you, but addiction runs in my family so I know to be careful and know how easy it is for my family to get issues with substance abuse. If you can see a doctor about the anxiety then do. I don't want you to get ill or anything. *worries*

Do you know what set it off?

You have a brother? I didn't know! Younger or older?

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-27 00:21:29 +0000 UTC]

Ah, I didn't see that one, hm. I understand that and of course for you I would.

Wow, I barely slept last night till I finally stuck my ear phones in with my music on my phone. I'm glad to hear that you sleep so long that is good to hear.

I've been drinking since I was 13 years old. I do admit the need for it is stronger because of the life I've livid. I do very much enjoy my sauce to much but it's not my life. Kalms? Never heard of them but I need to take a lot, I am sure I do with how strong my Anxiety is and my tolerance to substance's because of the things I've done. But I was blessed with the ability to turn my needs or wants off. My family doesn't have an addiction thank goodness or I'd be Fucked like my Teme is. Jajaja no worries I wont get I'll of drinking.

One knowing that people would be in my room when I am not there and just having people over who aren't close to me. I also don't like crowds unless I have drinks in me or Teme is around. She has that ability to calm my anxiety because she knows me so well.

No my mother's brother and he's older than my mother.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-28 00:15:14 +0000 UTC]

*blush*

I hope you have a good night's sleep tonight then at least. I'll be sending you sweet dreams~~ Maybe some tea is in order?

Ah, I see... so you've developed a resistance to stuff like that. As long as you're well and healthy then I'm happy. I'm just asking you to be careful, but it looks like you have it under control.

Kalms are a kind of mild anxiety/stress and/or insomnia aid depending on which ones you take. A kind of herbal remedy? If you've built a resistance against that too then it won't work as well, but you never know.

I don't like crowds either, but I'm glad She can help you out when you do go into crowded places.

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-03-30 00:10:50 +0000 UTC]

Mmm blushes how cute. -Smirks-

Fuck yeah, I will because my last head case problem just floated to the surface and I finally found a reason to throw the dead fish away. Sweet, I'm stupid people free at last . . I've been so sick of always holding my tounge to be nice about what I in her. I've never broken a promise but this one I just couldn't keep and I'm happy not to. I'm not even going to need the Liquor other than to celebrate this glorious day!!! -Dances and sings to the song 'Don't Give A Fuck' song by 'Dope'. So it's finally official!!!! Me and that no good, horrable liar, dirty, rotton, skanky Shit faced of a so called best friend and me are no longer friends.

I'm healthy as far as I know, I have to go to the doctors at some point and see if I am inside but for now I feel very good!!!

Hmm I'll see what the doctor says whenever I decided to go see her . . . I don't know we will have to see if I have. Diffrent trhings have diffrent affects with me.

Well now looks like I'll be having to help myself. OH WELL -Laughs-

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-03-31 11:32:53 +0000 UTC]

That's good, but you still sound pretty angry. What happened?

I'm sure you'll be fine! I know you to be someone who can cope on her own.

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-04-05 04:49:05 +0000 UTC]

I was just angry because the E-mail situation has pushed all my work back and now I have even more things to due.

Oh I know I'll be fine I have my Bestie Ra of almost eight years and I have you and many others.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-02-04 00:21:46 +0000 UTC]

Love and kisses back! *cuddles*

Your contest prize is finished -----> [link]

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-02-04 00:33:20 +0000 UTC]

-Chuckles- The cover is called 'Last Week Of Freedom'. Your so cute!

Thank you sooo much for the drawing!!!

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-02-04 00:39:55 +0000 UTC]

Uwawawawawawawawawa ;_; I'll fix it! Sorry >A<

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-02-04 00:42:37 +0000 UTC]

No No, really it's ok. Long hours was the other Story included into that contest so it's a simple mistake. I think I'm going to take a nap so I have energy again. I'm at a point where my Insomnia is going to allow me to sleep I should take this chance.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-02-04 00:46:00 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, I only realised how I'd muddled them up after you pointed it out. I should sleep too. Good night Akemi~~ Sleep well.

I edited the title so it's all fixed now. ^U^

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Moved2013 [2012-01-23 23:18:19 +0000 UTC]

I was just about to write you a message! Sleep well.

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Moved2013 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-01-25 07:32:54 +0000 UTC]

Glad this time I got to write back so you wouldn't.

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to Sonamyfan5139 [2012-01-03 00:21:26 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, I'm flattered! Thank you for the watch as well, it means a lot to me.

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Sonamyfan5139 In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2012-01-03 02:43:24 +0000 UTC]

you're very welcome!i hope to see more art from you soon!

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAQ [2011-12-30 20:19:21 +0000 UTC]

Hey Sexy~~~

How are you? Back in China I suppose?

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QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAQ In reply to VocaloidOtakuRisa [2011-12-30 22:30:51 +0000 UTC]

ya~~
oh and i started redrawing cg~~i did the cover show you when we back at s-hill~~

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VocaloidOtakuRisa In reply to QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAQ [2011-12-31 12:06:46 +0000 UTC]

WOOHOO~~~ I can't wait! Are they both on the cover or is it red or is it the queen I'M SO CURIOUS!

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